My ninth standard finals got over on 14th february. This time, it was a different experience. Actually, both my 9th standard exams have been different from all others. I freaked out! Everyone asked me to calm down! Everyone!! But, that didn't really have an effect on me! I was freaking out a month before the exams and I wasn't my very best during the exams either.
The reason behind this change in me is unknown to me! I wish I knew...
We have our extra classes for tenth standard beginning from Monday itself! I never really liked session breaks and I always wanted school to open. But, this time I just feel sad to know that I'll have to go for extra classes to school while everyone else is enjoying their break!
There is no real holiday for us "tenthers". The school creates such a fuss about tenth standard! And honestly, I am not too happy about being a tenther! I had always wanted to come to tenth standard. But, now I wish that I am allowed to go back to 7th or 8th standard!
There is no excitement at all! And I am getting anxious about tenth and that is a very bad sign! It's hard to control! For the last one month or so I have been studying like a lunatic. And now, I am feeling guilty because I am not studying anything. But, I don't feel like studying either!
It's so difficult!! I seriously have no idea what on earth am I going to do in this coming year! Why on earth have I changed so much! Why do I have to be serious! I really wish that God brings me back to what I was just a year ago! :(
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