Decisions

Life is all about decisions and choices. It is said very rightly in one of the Harry Potter books : "it is your choices that show you who you truly are". Well, obviously, this line was used in a different context in the book!

You have to make choices every day and every moment.. And these choices affect not just your life but also the life of so many others!

Decision making is difficult! Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you are not able to decide... Sometimes, we need to take hard decisions and sometimes the quick ones!

And then the worst and best part about choices - they change!
Yeah, it's true! You choose something today and months ans years later you end up choosing something else.. This shows the uncertainity of our decisions.

I had always wanted to become an engineer, walk through the gates of Indian Institute of Technology(IIT). I have alway loved physics. It's not an easy subject. But, it's super interesting. I was completely against choosing a medical profession for myself. I liked biology but I felt that the medical field is for braver hearts than mine...

When I came to standard nine, I became really interested in biology. I started thinking of becoming a radiologist!! Now, this was a shocker for me! Never had I thought that I would ever wish to become a doctor!

It's not that I don't want to be an engineer anymore! I still like physics! But, then I also like biology. I have to make a choice.. Maybe it's too early to make one. But, it has to be made!

I don't know what choice I will make. I don't know what job I'll be doing 10 years hence! It's a hard decision to make. But I'm sure I'll be able to male it!

I am reminded of a few lines from Robert Frost's poem, "The Road Not Taken" which I will share with you :
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence :
Two roads diverged in a wood, and
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Note : the poem has left it to the readers to decide whether the 'sigh' is an expression of happiness or an expression of disappointment....

Come on! Cheer up!!! :D

Exam papers have started coming out and I see so many emotions around me. There are people happily looking at their marks and then there are those who are wearing a depressed look on their face! The exams definitely cause a lot of discrimination.. I see my friend sulking away just because she hasn't received good marks. Sorry, a correction, my friend is sulking away because she is not receiving marks as good as mine or my other friends! Is that the way to deal with marks? Do you go away from your friends just because they are better scorers?
Oh come on!! You know that's not true! I know practically no one would agree with me, but marks really don't matter. Its the knowledge that matters at the end of the day!
I too believe in marks. I will be sad if I don't get the so-called "good" marks. But, who is really going to remember. May be you will remember your marks. But, no one else is ever going to think, "What marks did she get in history in standard nine?".
And then there are people who start forming these groups like '90% students' and '80% students'. What's the point in doing so? You will part with your friends just because they fit into the '90%' group? You will consider yourself to be unworthy of their friendship because of such stupid reasons?
Come on!!! Get over this! You know that your friends can't survive without you! They will never put your marks before you!! NEVER!! Why are you sulking then? Why are you sobbing? Why are you going away then?
Why? Oh why?
Come on, mate! We are here for you! You can share all that's in you with us. We will help you out. And if we can't we will stand by you. Don't blindly believe what others have told you! Percentages are nothing in front of our friendship!! Get over it! We are waiting! :D

There are days when I come to my blog and I just don't feel like writing anything. So I end up just checking the stats and then going away. Then there are days when I feel like writing a lot and I do write a lot. Then there are days when I feel like writing a lot, but I can't decide what should I write about!
Today falls into the third category of days. I have this strong urge to write something interesting to update my blog. But, I just can't think of a topic to write on.
I think of writing about myself and my aspirations. I think of writing about my take on life, the dreams that I dream and the goals that I want to achieve. But, then I feel : "Would this be of interest to all readers?". And I drop the idea!
Next, I think of writing about my plans for the day. But then I realise that I haven't made any!
I think of writing about the weather outside, but, there's not much to write about it. The weather's not that inspiring!
I don't have anything to write about cricket or about books. Although I did make a pizza yesterday(my very own recipe), I am not in the mood to write about food.
I am going to go for a movie later today. But, I can't really write about the movie unless I have seen it. And then there's no point in expressing my excitement!
I think of writing about blogging. I started blogging when my aunt suggested me to do so. My friend also started blogging on the same day. Blogging is just such a good way of expressing your thoughts, ideas and so much more. As I am thinking of writing about blogging, I drop that idea as well.
And now I am sitting, thinking that I didn't write anything at all. It's only when I read what I have written above, that I realised, I have already written a post!!!

Wow! That's surprising!! But, I guess that's the magic of blogging! Ideas simply flow out of your mind!!
Ending a post, that I never really intended to write, I would like to say that I LOVE BLOGGING!!! And I suggest that everyone should start blogging about something or the other...!!!

It's been a long time since I posted something on my blog.. And I am really sorry to keep you all waiting.. But now that I am back I have many things to write about. Most importantly I want to write about the experience that I had during this examinations..

The exams kicked off on the 3rd of September. While writing my very first examination, I forgot one of the points of an answer. Never in the last few years had it been that I have completely forgotten a point. I had to concentrate a lot to remember. It was a weird experience. 

The rest of the week was no good. For me, exams have always been an enjoyable experience. This time, however I cried before my 2nd, 4th and 5th exams. I stressed out before the rest. I believe that I performed well in the exams but the experience was a hectic one. 

Why was I nervous and tensed? I don't really know! I wish I had known! I was under no pressure by anyone.. But, still I felt that I had to perform well. Why? I again have no idea. 

I wish I knew the answers...

Before the 6th exam we had a long weeken at our disposal. My dad and mum asked me to read a pages from Dale Carnegie's book : How to stop worrying and start living

I have to admit that it's a beautiful book. I learnt that if I think I will fail, I will most definitely will. But if I think that I can do it, I most surely will. 

The book did give me some confidence. But, this exam was a lot different from the others.. I'll make sure that all others are not like this one. :D

I do recommend that all of you should go through Dale Carnegie's "How To Stop Worrying And Start Living". Its a wonderful book!